More "good" ideas. And apples!

I haven't blogged in a while, which I don't particularly like. It's good to have things written so your mind can't tangle them up again. Let's talk about my newest "good" idea.

I decided I need a project.
I like it here. I love it here. I'm happy with everything at Harvard, but there's some general chemistry or something that's missing because it's still so new. As close to perfect as this has been for me, it can't be air-tight because that would be crazy. Don't ask me to explain what's missing for me, because I'm not totally sure. Maybe I'll be able to figure out. I do know that it'll definitely change given a little bit of time.

I was thinking about this, and in kind of an off mood for a different reason when I said to myself, "Focus. Get your mind onto something. Throw yourself into some crazy thing so that everything else can just fall into its own place." Do you know the feeling where you can tell something's coming but aren't really sure yet? I didn't know what would hit me. I just had the feeling that it would, soon, and that it would be epic.

So, I was walking back from the dining hall and I decided to write a book.
Not like I've always said, 50 years from now when I'm old and wise and omniscient, now. While I can. I don't have a story yet, but I've been writing a little bit, and I think I'll keep gong until I find one that feels real enough to record.

Let me emphasize the difference between writing  a book and publishing a book: I don't necessarily feel the need to make other people read this, maybe just a few when I'm done. This isn't about the story or the writing or the readers, it's about the product. I'm determined that there will be a product eventually. It feels right.

In other news, I have apples and IBC. My mind has settled down a little bit. Reason came back. Decision did too, a little. It's still messy in there, but it's not an unhappy kind of messy anymore. So, really, when you think about it, I'm almost entirely all set.

L