And I can't see so good.

Is it June yet?
Lately I've just been so exhausted with things that it's crazy. Dance is great, but even that has its setbacks, literally, since I haven't been able to get though a single intense class all year without stopping.
Am I physically tired? Yes.
Is that the problem? Maybe a little bit.
But I can deal with that. It's school that's my issue.
I'm done with high school. In all honesty, I feel like I've taken all I can from it and now I'm just working my ass off for the sake of working my ass off. Even that isn't doing anything for me. Except for a few classes, I'm really not benefiting from it and I'm reallyreally ready to move on but I. can't. yet. Sometimes I honestly wonder how I thought there was anything here for me. I do everything, while doing it better than anyone else, and I've learned some great lessons at Brady but I don't know how much more it has to teach me.
Would you care for an example? Two days ago in AP English, which is definitely one of the hardest classes in the school, I took an open-book test on something we had just learned that period. I didn't use my book. I got the only 100% in the class. Double win right there. Then, today, she entered the scores into our averages and took them out if they brought our overall grade down. My test didn't raise my average; my average stayed the same. Triple win.Or how about in my AP BC Calc class, the hardest one in the school, where I don't do my homework and don't know what's going on about one third of the time but keep up a solid B. Or honors Physics where I don't pay attention, study ten minutes before tests, and get A's. But wait, there's the Latin class that I didn't have time for, that I take after school once a week, where I translate the original Aeneid and have to recognize obscure literary devices in another language. I think that class is my highest grade right now.
Add running Literary Magazine. Add controlling the entire visual aspect of our class's yearbook Add five days in the studio. 
I was looking for a challenge by loading myself up like this. What I'm getting is a whole lot of time wrapped up in non-challenge. It's not even that my classes aren't hard--they are. For some reason, hard classes just don't test me and push me the way I need to be tested and pushed. The only things that are being tested are my time-management skills, which are completely pitiful, but instead of fixing that I just muscle through with brainpower and everything's fine... Better than fine. Academically, there's just less and less for me at this school, and socially, let's face it, there was never anything for me at Brady. At risk of sounding like a pretentious faux-sophisticated brat, I'm going through a serious case of ennui, and I don't like it. Boredom is not my thing.
Is it June yet?
I want to go to college.

L